Fear the Thief

Luke 12:32-40

12:32 "Do not be afraid, little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.

12:33 Sell your possessions, and give alms. Make purses for yourselves that do not wear out, an unfailing treasure in heaven, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys.

12:34 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

12:35 "Be dressed for action and have your lamps lit;

12:36 be like those who are waiting for their master to return from the wedding banquet, so that they may open the door for him as soon as he comes and knocks.

12:37 Blessed are those slaves whom the master finds alert when he comes; truly I tell you, he will fasten his belt and have them sit down to eat, and he will come and serve them.

12:38 If he comes during the middle of the night, or near dawn, and finds them so, blessed are those slaves.

12:39 "But know this: if the owner of the house had known at what hour the thief was coming, he would not have let his house be broken into.

12:40 You also must be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an unexpected hour."

Jesus is thick into teaching about the role of wealth and material possessions. Last week he dealt with two brothers who were feuding over their dead father's belt buckle collection by telling them the story of the greedy farmer who should have been rich toward God rather than toward his own self. In between that and this Sunday's text are Jesus' teachings urging Christians not to strive for or worry about what they will eat or wear (God takes care of us just like he does the birds of the air and the flowers of the field). Strive for God's kingdom rather than these things which God already is providing.

This Sunday's text is also about material possessions. Willimon is blogging on it at Theolog. I appreciate what he has to say. Especially his attention to the fact that God can be like a thief, breaking into our lives and robbing us. Something to think about these days when God is supposed to be so fricking affirming and nice. Willimon recognizes that in Jesus' words "Have no fear little flock," and connecting that to selling all of our stuff and giving away our money he is getting to the heart of the matter. What a scary thought! Getting rid of all that security! But this sense of detachment is part of getting ready for the Lord.

And what if we don't get ready? The Lord will show up anyway, and it just might be in the form of a thief to take away all that we have. I think of those whose places are threatened by the fires. . .

Anyways, whose up for this Old Testament fear of God thing-- dogs and cats sleeping together-- wrath of God, etc? God is hidden some of the time; some of the time God is hidden. How could we preach on this thieving God in a way that would lead to discussing the role of the cross in our lives? How can we talk about God in a way that takes the Anfechtung experience seriously? How can we preach a God who the 35-W'ers could relate to?

I Need MORE!

Luke 12:13-21

Someone in the crowd said to him, "Teacher, tell my brother to divide the family inheritance with me." 14But he said to him, "Friend, who set me to be a judge or arbitrator over you?" 15And he said to them, "Take care! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; for one's life does not consist in the abundance of possessions." 16Then he told them a parable: "The land of a rich man produced abundantly. 17And he thought to himself, 'What should I do, for I have no place to store my crops?' 18Then he said, 'I will do this: I will pull down my barns and build larger ones, and there I will store all my grain and my goods. 19And I will say to my soul, Soul, you have ample goods laid up for many years; relax, eat, drink, be merry.' 20But God said to him, 'You fool! This very night your life is being demanded of you. And the things you have prepared, whose will they be?' 21So it is with those who store up treasures for themselves but are not rich toward God."

I like the title that Bernard Brandon Scott gives to this parable: “How to Mismanage a Miracle.” He reads it as a stewardship/idolatry issue of the man claiming ownership of that which has been given to him as gift to benefit not just him, but the community.
“The parable cleverly equates the mismanagement of the miraculous harvest with idolatry.” Hear Then the Parable p. 140

In preaching on this text 3 years ago, I quoted this, I think from DJ Hall: “is it Christianity that has taught us to love consumption, over-abundance and waste?”

Loader opens with this line:

“The passage begins with the exchange about inheritance which serves as an introduction to Jesus’ warnings about greed (12:13-15). We might imagine that the reasons for attacking greed are because it deprives others. These are reasons enough. Here, however, the focus is what makes for a meaningful life. What is abundance in life?”

Willimon has a good sermon on this: http://www.chapel.duke.edu/worship/sunday/viewsermon.aspx?id=7
One could do a lot worse than take this sermon, and add some Gospel proclamation. . . perhaps focused on the abundance of God’s generosity. . . (That wasn’t a very generous thing to say, was it?)

here are some extensive quotes from Willimon

Christianity [has the goal] not to quench all desire, but rather to kindle your desire for the right thing.
“You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it rest in you.” These words begin Augustine’s autobiography of redirected passion, Augustine’s Confessions. Only God can satisfy because we are created by God to love God. Nothing else can ever satisfy the depth of that longing.
Our problem as humans is not that we are full of desire, burning with unfulfillment. Our problem is that we long for that which is unfulfilling. We attempt to be content with that which never satisfies. As C. S. Lewis says we are far too easily pleased.
...Our burning desire testifies that God has created us for himself, and we burn to be fulfilled. Our desire is boundless because it is meant to find its rest — that is, its perfect source and object--in God. Without the God for whom we were created, we are insignificant, nothing, therefore we relentlessly grab for this and for that, hoping to insulate ourselves from our nothingness.
...And the Christian faith reiterates that the problem is not that we desire but that we desire too little. Having no proper object for our desires, we breathlessly run toward everything. In our state of disordered desire, we transmute love into lust, achievement into acquisitiveness, and vocation into drudgery. Having no Creator tempts us to make our lives our creations, Unable to rest easy in God’s good creation, to see our lives as God’s good creation, we have much to do. (“I know what I will do. I will tear down my barns and fill new ones. I will say to my soul, take ease…”)

Might we say that this is a stewardship text?
Stewardship of life.
Stewardship of the Gospel.
A call to live in the abundant grace of God, and for that life to spill over into the lives of others.

It's Hot

10:38 Now as they went on their way, he entered a certain village, where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home.

10:39 She had a sister named Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet and listened to what he was saying.

10:40 But Martha was distracted by her many tasks; so she came to him and asked, "Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to do all the work by myself? Tell her then to help me."

10:41 But the Lord answered her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and distracted by many things;

10:42 there is need of only one thing. Mary has chosen the better part, which will not be taken away from her."

Willimon is the current blogger for the Christia Century's Theolog. His post for this text focuses more on Jesus than on Mary and Martha. I think I like that approach. Click here to read his full version.

Here's a good quote:

On his way to his costly work in Jerusalem, Jesus has paused for an evening with these two women. Whatever work he is doing, he has decided to do that work with the two of them. He disrupts the home—a place of refuge, retreat and renewal. Then he claims the home—where two women work and care for the needs of each other—as space where he cares for them. He seeks out, speaks to and instructs women, who are often relegated to the private space of the home, confined within the boundaries of domesticity. He treats them as full-fledged disciples, giving them himself and his teaching without reserve.

So, as I agree with Willimon, I think a good strategy for preaching this text would be to proclaim Jesus as showing up in our homes or wherever we are and being with us. It would be good also to talk about the confrontational ways of Jesus too. When he shows up in our homes, what does he do or say that make us want to kill him? As well, proclaim the boundary-crossing Jesus who seeks out the over-looked or excluded.

One can't overlook Jesus's praise of Mary though. This picture of her, sitting at the feet of Jesus listening to him is helpful for us as we ask our what-must-I-do-to-inherit-eternal-life questions: How should I be as a Christian? What should I do: Show mercy (like the Good Samaritan) and sit at the feet of Jesus (like Mary). His presence-- showing up in our homes and lives-- is enough to restore us.

Howdy Neighbor

For July 15th

Luke 10:25-37
Just then a lawyer stood up to test Jesus. “Teacher,” he said, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?” He said to him, “What is written in the law? What do you read there?” He answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind; and your neighbor as yourself.” And he said to him, “You have given the right answer; do this, and you will live.” But wanting to justify himself, he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?” Jesus replied, “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and fell into the hands of robbers, who stripped him, beat him, and went away, leaving him half dead. Now by chance a priest was going down that road; and when he saw him, he passed by on the other side. So likewise a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. But a Samaritan while traveling came near him; and when he saw him, he was moved with pity. He went to him and bandaged his wounds, having poured oil and wine on them. Then he put him on his own animal, brought him to an inn, and took care of him. The next day he took out two denarii, gave them to the innkeeper, and said, ‘Take care of him; and when I come back, I will repay you whatever more you spend.’ 36* Which of these three, do you think, was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of the robbers?” He said, “The one who showed him mercy.” Jesus said to him, “Go and do likewise.”

I wasn’t going to post anything, but I figure that Magy needs some help for his sermon on Sunday. You’re preaching at Pella the 15th, aren’t ya?
Have a wonderful wedding and honeymoon JM!!!!!

THE PARABLE OF THE GOOD SAMARITAN
What can one say about this parable that will be heard?
The parable itself rings so loudly. And, one might suggest, we listen in such a way that we do not hear a call to change our ways, but we hear an affirmation of what sniggling generosity we exercise toward others. . . (heck, when someone does the littlest favor for a stranger they’re called a “good Samaritan”)
I have taken the tack of suggesting that originally, Jesus told a story about a Priest, a Levite and a Samaritan, and that Jesus’ hearers would have expected a different 3rd person. It’s like telling a joke about a Priest, a Minister and a Rabbi, but having a Priest, a Minister and a Frenchman. The hearers would not have identified with any of the three. They would have been left with identifying with the wounded traveler, and the savior is the least expected. . . (From Hear Then the Parable by Bernard Brandon Scott)
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
I just re-read a powerful article by Brueggemann. The Liturgy of Abundance, The Myth of Scarcity from the Christian Century 1999.
http://www.religion-online.org/showarticle.asp?title=533
He opens with this paragraph

The majority of the world's resources pour into the United States. And as we Americans grow more and more wealthy, money is becoming a kind of narcotic for us. We hardly notice our own prosperity or the poverty of so many others. The great contradiction is that we have more and more money and less and less generosity - less and less public money for the needy, less charity for the neighbor.

later, Brueggemann says this:

Telling parables was one of Jesus' revolutionary activities, for parables are subversive re-imagining of reality. The ideology devoted to encouraging consumption wants to shrivel our imaginations so that we cannot conceive of living in any way that would be less profitable for the dominant corporate structures. But Jesus tells us that we can change the world. The Christian community performs a vital service by keeping the parables alive. These stories haunt us and push us in directions we never thought we would go.

Maybe it is instructive to think about how the lawyer asked a question of Jesus, and he answered with a slightly different question. He redirects our eyes to see all in need as those whom God cares for, and he invites you to see yourself as neighbor. Perhaps we need to be redirected. No longer seeing ourselves as the savior, but as the neighbor in need.

This is, perhaps, enough to get us thinking a bit about this powerful story, and how we might invite one another to “Go and do likewise.”

Called, Gathered, Sent

Luke 10:1-11, 16-20
1 After this the Lord appointed seventy others and sent them on ahead of him in pairs to every town and place where he himself intended to go. 2 He said to them, “The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few; therefore ask the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest. 3 Go on your way. See, I am sending you out like lambs into the midst of wolves. 4 Carry no purse, no bag, no sandals; and greet no one on the road. 5 Whatever house you enter, first say, ‘Peace to this house!’ 6 And if anyone is there who shares in peace, your peace will rest on that person; but if not, it will return to you. 7 Remain in the same house, eating and drinking whatever they provide, for the laborer deserves to be paid. Do not move about from house to house. 8 Whenever you enter a town and its people welcome you, eat what is set before you; 9 cure the sick who are there, and say to them, ‘The kingdom of God has come near to you.’ 10 But whenever you enter a town and they do not welcome you, go out into its streets and say, 11 ‘Even the dust of your town that clings to our feet, we wipe off in protest against you. Yet know this: the kingdom of God has come near.’
16 “Whoever listens to you listens to me, and whoever rejects you rejects me, and whoever rejects me rejects the one who sent me.” 17 The seventy returned with joy, saying, “Lord, in your name even the demons submit to us!” 18 He said to them, “I watched Satan fall from heaven like a flash of lightning. 19 See, I have given you authority to tread on snakes and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy; and nothing will hurt you. 20 Nevertheless, do not rejoice at this, that the spirits submit to you, but rejoice that your names are written in heaven.”

As the “Pete Is So Awesome” Tour heads to a new city, we have a text that speaks of the call to reach out with the Good News of the Kingdom. This seems to me a text that might well call for us to speak of the priesthood of all believers.
I wonder, sometimes, at the talk of “leadership.” I think of Forde’s line, “beware of ship words.” Or the title of that Dilbert book, “Don’t Step in the Leadership.” Do faith communities that reach out well in the name of Christ benefit from excellent leadership, or faithful followership?
I like this in Willimon’s blog entry on the Xian Century site. He riffs off of the second lesson, then moves to the Gospel:

...suddenly, in mid-diatribe, Paul asserts, “Now you are the body of Christ.”
Really? This forlorn conglomeration of inept hangers-on, they are the body of Christ? It’s outrageous for Jesus Christ to so limit himself in such a lousy body. Alas, that’s the way this God works.
Let’s first agree that God can do anything, anywhere, anytime God wants. Self-sufficient omnipotence is the very essence of deity? Right?
Wrong.
There is something about the Trinity that refuses to work alone. One of the medieval rabbis, in his commentary on the Exodus, stood amazed that Yahweh refused to work wonders without Israel. The Creator of the Universe needs help? Whatever God wants to do for the world, God chooses a ragtag family like Israel to do it. Though God does not need Israel or anybody else to work wonders, something in this God desires to work synergistically.

Later, he has this great line

It takes a great God to stoop to work through little people like us.

The Preaching Peace people see this text as a call to proclaim a message in keeping with their Girardian read on the Gospel: “Peace to this house” “The Kingdom is near”
Mary Hinkle’s blog has some good stuff quoting from Richard Lischer

"In a culture obsessed with self-improvement, preaching speaks an eschatological word. It announces God’s open future that has broken into time in Jesus Christ. …
"The sermon participates in something larger than improvement, the reality of which is hard to put into words and whose end cannot be seen. In Luke 10 after Jesus sends out the Seventy, they return with glowing reports of their success. The Lord replies in an eschatological non sequitur, 'I saw Satan fall like lightning from heaven.' What we see in our parishes is improvements and setbacks; he sees on our behalf what is the beginning of a whole new age (pp. 178-9)."
Richard A. Lischer, "The Interrupted Sermon," © Interpretation 50 (1996) : 169-81.
She says:
Perhaps it works to say that Jesus sees the beginning of a whole new age in our lives together as well as our congregational life together? If that is true, and if preaching is indeed the strange language that communicates the transformed future that has broken into time in Jesus Christ, then preaching could also be described as the proclamation of what Jesus sees.

What does Jesus see when Jesus looks at us? Those through whom God has elected to work with to bring God’s peace to this world in need?

He set his face to go to Jerusalem

Luke 9: 51-62
51"When the days drew near for him to be taken up, he set his face to go to Jerusalem. 52And he sent messengers ahead of him. On their way they entered a village of the Samaritans to make ready for him; 53but they did not receive him, because his face was set toward Jerusalem. 54When his disciples James and John saw it, they said, "Lord, do you want us to command fire to come down from heaven and consume them?" 55But he turned and rebuked them. 56Then they went on to another village.
57As they were going along the road, someone said to him, "I will follow you wherever you go." 58And Jesus said to him, "Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests; but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head." 59To another he said, "Follow me." But he said, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father." 60But Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead; but as for you, go and proclaim the kingdom of God." 61Another said, "I will follow you, Lord; but let me first say farewell to those at my home." 62Jesus said to him, "No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God."

Here we have the “Purpose Driven” Jesus. Jesus is singled minded, courageous, steely, steadfast and resolved to go to Jerusalem. What does it mean to “set one’s face” to something ? William Willimon writes, Two roads diverged, one led back to Galilee (peace, a haven, safety, a home) and another to Jerusalem (suffering and death). Can you see him hesitating a moment before those divergent roads ? The choices of safety and peril ? He was tempted all the way there. His face, hard set, met inhospitality, rejection and suffering. So what drove him ? What would drive any of us to follow where Jesus calls us ? Could it possibly be love ? Crazy..divine love ? Willimon shares a story told by George Buttrick: Some years ago there was a newspaper account of two men coming down a factory staircase and of one of them flinging the lighted end of a cigarette into what he thought was a fire bucket filled with water. The water proved to be gasoline. There was a sudden spurt of flame. And one youth instinctively, ran dowstairs to save his own skin. The other, just as instinctively ran upstairs to warn the people working in the factory floor above him. Which self takes over in such a time ? The self-preserving downstairs self ? Or the upstairs self ? The Galilee self ? Or the Jerusalem self ? My instinct is like those in the text… “First let me…..then I will follow.” Is this divine, sacrificial love so powerful so as to include me ? Is grace and faith sufficient enough to help me put my hand to the plow and not look back long enough to take the easy way out rather than to face the struggle…the cross ?

Legion - That’s like a whole bunch, isn’t it?

Luke 8:26-39
Then they arrived at the country of the Gerasenes, which is opposite Galilee. As he stepped out on land, a man of the city who had demons met him. For a long time he had worn no clothes, and he did not live in a house but in the tombs. When he saw Jesus, he fell down before him and shouted at the top of his voice, "What have you to do with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High God? I beg you, do not torment me"-- for Jesus had commanded the unclean spirit to come out of the man. (For many times it had seized him; he was kept under guard and bound with chains and shackles, but he would break the bonds and be driven by the demon into the wilds.) Jesus then asked him, "What is your name?" He said, "Legion"; for many demons had entered him. They begged him not to order them to go back into the abyss. Now there on the hillside a large herd of swine was feeding; and the demons begged Jesus to let them enter these. So he gave them permission. Then the demons came out of the man and entered the swine, and the herd rushed down the steep bank into the lake and was drowned. When the swineherds saw what had happened, they ran off and told it in the city and in the country. Then people came out to see what had happened, and when they came to Jesus, they found the man from whom the demons had gone sitting at the feet of Jesus, clothed and in his right mind. And they were afraid. Those who had seen it told them how the one who had been possessed by demons had been healed. Then all the people of the surrounding country of the Gerasenes asked Jesus to leave them; for they were seized with great fear. So he got into the boat and returned. The man from whom the demons had gone begged that he might be with him; but Jesus sent him away, saying, "Return to your home, and declare how much God has done for you. " So he went away, proclaiming throughout the city how much Jesus had done for him.

This is one of those texts that has so many possibilities I begin to feel immobilized at the thought of where to go with it. There are so many directions one can follow

- demons - tombs - “opposite Galilee” - bound - legion - healed/in his right mind -
- reject Jesus - “seized with great fear” -

All that, not to mention the pigs, nor, for that matter, what might be most interesting, the man begging to go with Jesus, and Jesus giving him a mission with those very people who had marginalized him. . .
Mary W. Anderson has a real nice sermon on that, titled: “Stay and Follow”
Read that. I can’t top it. http://www.religion-online.org/showarticle.asp?title=645
I wonder if my sense of being overwhelmed by the homiletical task here might mirror the sense of being overwhelmed that we all have in our lives. There are so many choices, so many directions to go. We become caught up in lives of busy-ness, and fail to live the lives we desire, or the lives to which God calls us. The options/possibilities/challenges are legion.
I’m not sure we need to de-mythologize the possession of this unfortunate man all that much.
“What ails you?”
“Where do I begin?” “Legion”
Jesus steps into our lives of quiet desperation, and casts out
- what -
alienation, fear, death and the devil...
Jesus doesn’t stop there.
“Return to your home, and declare how much God has done for you. . . “
As Forde liked to say The real question isn't "are you saved?" it is "What are you saved for?" For your neighbor.

I Heard It, But I Didn’t Understand

John 16:12–15
I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth; for he will not speak on his own, but will speak whatever he hears, and he will declare to you the things that are to come. He will glorify me, because he will take what is mine and declare it to you. All that the Father has is mine. For this reason I said that he will take what is mine and declare it to you.

In one of his stories from Lake Wobegon, G. Keillor tells of the priest at Our Lady of Perpetual Responsibility Parish, who, in a move that he realizes was clearly a mistake, forms a worship committee. The committee installs bright lights in the sanctuary.
In a comical scene, he disables the lights the night before Easter.
Keillor says that the priest doesn’t like the bright lights, they remove mystery. He says the priest “always thought the Lutherans wanted to do away with mystery altogether.”
hmmmmmmm
I collect quotes. Mostly one or two lines. . . don’t want to go beyond my attention span. . .
Here’s a few

To try to deny the Trinity endangers your salvation, to try to comprehend the Trinity endangers your sanity." Martin Luther

I realize that the only time the church is really sufferable is when it is at prayer. When it talks, it claims too much for itself. Reinhold Niebuhr

I wonder if we make the mistake of addressing the Trinity as a problem to be solved, rather than a mystery with which we are called to live. A truth given to us to inspire wonder.
I suspect that Niebuhr is spot on about most of our explanations of the Trinity. I could probably simply say - about most of our explanations.

In a marvelous sermon - “So Explain It To Me” - colleague Mary W. Anderson (anybody know her? I like her stuff) says:

Yet how important is it to explain the mystery of God revealed to us in three distinct ways? Mysteries explained cease to be mysteries, don't they? Perhaps the doctrine of the Trinity challenges our secret wish to know God fully and eliminate all mystery. This, after all, was the burning desire of our first parents in the Garden, a desire that ultimately caused them to fall from grace. Does this temptation to dispel all mystery still burn within us?

I haven’t even touched on Trinity as relationship, etc. etc.
One last quote:

God tends to confound, astonish and flabbergast. A Bethlehem stable, a Roman cross, an empty garden tomb. We might as well reconcile ourselves to the fact that God's truth often turns up in ways we don't expect. - Sue Monk Kidd

DID YOU HEAR THAT?

John 14:8–17, 25–27

Philip said to him, "Lord, show us the Father, and we will be satisfied." 9 Jesus said to him, "Have I been with you all this time, Philip, and you still do not know me? Whoever has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, 'Show us the Father'? 10 Do you not believe that I am in the Father and the Father is in me? The words that I say to you I do not speak on my own; but the Father who dwells in me does his works. 11 Believe me that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; but if you do not, then believe me because of the works themselves. 12 Very truly, I tell you, the one who believes in me will also do the works that I do and, in fact, will do greater works than these, because I am going to the Father. 13 I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 If in my name you ask me for anything, I will do it.
15 If you love me, you will keep my commandments. 16 And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Advocate, to be with you forever. 17 This is the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him. You know him, because he abides with you, and he will be in you.
25 I have said these things to you while I am still with you. 26 But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you everything, and remind you of all that I have said to you. 27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid.

Last week opened with an I statement
“I frickin hate preaching on this passage.”
How about another I statement -
“I don't know what the heck to do with Pentecost.”

I think, in part, that we make a mistake.
We read Pentecost as a Power Event.
We are empowered by the Spirit.
Yet, this is the Gospel we're talking about.
Forgiveness. Love. Not power.
Is it, instead, a learning event?
I know, stated that way it sounds a bit flaccid, but a learning event as in being informed and renewed by a vision of God who is for you, and for you in a particular way, and sends you into the world to be for the world in the same way.
I know that we say that knowledge is power, but. . .
Well, I like the suggestion by Edmund Steimle that the miracle of Pentecost is the hearing. "And how is it that we hear, each of us, in our own native language?”

We have a hearing problem at my house.
It resides - most irritatingly and obviously - in my 5 year old.
I will say to him. "Don't do - - - ."
He then does it.
I will then say to him "Did you hear me say, 'Don't do - - - ?'"
"Yes" he will say.
Then why did you do it?
"I don't know."
Come to think of it.
That's not a hearing problem, is it?
hmmmmmm
I digress.

I like the suggestion that the miracle of Pentecost is that one would hear the Good News.
Let me quote from a sermon by Jim Callahan, from the Christian Century, May 2000. I linked to this on textweek.com.

Some call Pentecost the "birthday of the church." I disagree. I sense that the church was born on Good Friday when Jesus, "just hanging around," as Robert Capon stunningly puts it, asked the Father to forgive us, and a few bewildered, broken-hearted women and men wandered off wondering how they were going to live with that. Pentecost was the day they got their answer: with great joy, and with wind and fire and Spirit, making them look like a bunch of happy drunks in the midst of a numbingly sober and sour world. At last they knew that they were God’s -- every last one of them -- and that God was Love, not just in poetic theory but in palpable fact. They learned that in belonging to God they belonged also to each other. The joy derived from their trusting contained power, power not only to gladden but also to heal and redeem.

Here’s a true miracle of the Spirit - that we should believe - that we should hear this Good News - that we should become a part of Jesus' mission of loving the world to the end.
Here’s a true miracle of the Spirit - that we should be forgiven, that we should do greater works than Jesus. How greater? Greater in that the love which Jesus has unleashed, should go to the ends of the earth - borne by disciples who will hear the call to take up their cross and will in their own, halting and half hearted ways, follow this one who gave his life for the world. . .

The One Campaign

John 17: 20-26
20 "I ask not only on behalf of these, but also on behalf of those who will believe in me through their word, 21 that they may all be one. As you, Father, are in me and I am in you, may they also be in us, so that the world may believe that you have sent me. 22 The glory that you have given me I have given them, so that they may be one, as we are one, 23 I in them and you in me, that they may become completely one, so that the world may know that you have sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me. 24 Father, I desire that those also, whom you have given me, may be with me where I am, to see my glory, which you have given me because you loved me before the foundation of the world.

25 Righteous Father, the world does not know you, but I know you; and these know that you have sent me. 26 I made your name known to them, and I will make it known, so that the love with which you have loved me may be in them, and I in them."

Let me start with an "I statement." I frickin hate preaching on this passage.

Remember "The Concordat?" The debate surrounding it was at its height during my internship year which I spent in the NW WA Synod. At its Synod Assembly, a resolution against "The Concordat" was being debated. Speaking in favor of "The Concordat" one pastor said something like: "In John 17 Jesus prayed for the unity of the Church. Vote for 'The Concordat' and help fulfill his prayer."

Then I read or heard a statement by Luther Sem. prof David Frederickson who stated that Jesus was not talking about the "big church" in John 17. Jesus was talking about individual congregations. I prefer Frederickson's take.

I am reading a book by Peter Steinke-- Congregational Leadership in Anxious Times: Being Calm and Courageous No Matter What. In a chapter titled "The Leader's Challenge" (and on page 108) he writes about what church leaders can do during times of conflict to harness the good that can come out of the conflicted time. Introducing this theme he writes some good stuff that I would like us to ramble on. I'm not sure what this has to do with preaching; maybe it will help our thinking on this painful to preach on text.

A conflict-free congregation is incongruent not only with reality but even more with biblical theology. Jesus upset many people emotionally. The life of Jesus takes place against a backdrop of suspicion, opposition, and crucifixion. The Christian story is underlined with conflict. Early on, we encounter the emotional reactivity of the religious leaders, who see Jesus as a threat to their authority and belief system. Eventually the tension between the roaming preacher and the established religious order comes to a dramatic point. Tension leads to crucifixion.

The church has had divisions from its inception. No doubt, it has fought senseless battles, squandered its resources on frivolous issues, sent negative signals to society, shattered its unity, and forfeited chances to share its goodwill. Some churches work through the reactive period and emerge stronger. Others shuffle from crisis to crisis. What makes the difference in outcomes?

Nowhere in the Bible is tranquility preferred to truth or harmony to justice. Certainly reconciliation is the goal of the gospel, yet seldom is reconciliation an immediate result. If people believe the Holy Spirit is directing the congregation into the truth, wouldn't this alone encourage Christians who have differing notions to grapple with issues respectfully, lovingly, and responsively? If potent issues are avoided because they might divide the community, what type of witness is the congregation to the pursuit of truth?

What's Love Got to Do With It?

John 14:23–29
Jesus answered him, "Those who love me will keep my word, and my Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them. 24 Whoever does not love me does not keep my words; and the word that you hear is not mine, but is from the Father who sent me.
25 I have said these things to you while I am still with you. 26 But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you everything, and remind you of all that I have said to you. 27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid. 28 You heard me say to you, 'I am going away, and I am coming to you.' If you loved me, you would rejoice that I am going to the Father, because the Father is greater than I. 29 And now I have told you this before it occurs, so that when it does occur, you may believe.

I really don’t love the Gospel of John. I may love Jesus, but John? Not so much.
To my ears, in John, Jesus sometimes sounds kinda like a cult leader. “If you loved me...” "Those who love me...” “the word that you hear is not mine...” “Whoever does not love me...” “here, drink this Kool Aid...”
I suspect that the question to ask would be “Is the problem the Gospel of John? Or me?”
I resent that.
At the same time, Jesus calls us to receive the gifts that he brings, poured forth by God, through the Spirit.
While most everything I see addressing this text talks on and on about the Advocate. While that may well be central to this text, I am interested in the line: “ I do not give to you as the world gives.”
Am I starting to sound like Hauerwas or something? I don’t know.
The Rev. Dr. P. d’Basement will ask where the promise is in a text.
For me, there is rich promise in Jesus’ proclamation that he gives in ways quite different from the world. . .
I still don’t like John. I do love Jesus. You, the jury’s out.
My problems with this Gospel notwithstanding, there seems to be a path here to invite others to live in the promise. . .

The Glory of True Love

John 13:31–35

31 When he had gone out, Jesus said, "Now the Son of Man has been glorified, and God has been glorified in him. 32 If God has been glorified in him, God will also glorify him in himself and will glorify him at once. 33 Little children, I am with you only a little longer. You will look for me; and as I said to the Jews so now I say to you, 'Where I am going, you cannot come.' 34 I give you a new commandment, that you love one another. Just as I have loved you, you also should love one another. 35 By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another."

The two words which have grabbed my attention are “glory” and “love.” Song writers have tried to put them together. The group Chicago (lead: Peter Cetera) wrote a song called, The Glory of Love, which was used in one of the Karate Kid movies. It was a sappy love story where “The Kid” (the knight in shining armor) fights for his and his girl friend’s honor. “…knowing together that we did it all for the glory of love…” Balladeer, John Prine wrote a song with Roger Cook called, “The Glory of True Love.” The opening line goes,
Oh the glory of true love Is a wild and precious thing It don’t grow on old magnolias Or only blossom in the spring No the glory of true love Is it will last your whole life through Never will go out of fashion Always will look good on you.

In the thirteenth chapter of John we have Jesus washing his disciple’s feet..which is followed by the prediction of the betrayal by Judas…which is followed by Jesus’ announcing his departure and his commandment to love one another …which is followed by his prediction of Peter’s betrayal. Love and rejection emerges as a pattern here. The glory of true love (agape) in John’s gospel is Jesus on a cross. Lutheran N.T. professor, Barbara Rossing writes, “The disciples will participate in Jesus’ glorification through their participation in his love.” We are so deeply rooted in our own self interests that it is nearly impossible to preach and live this selfless love that Jesus demonstrated. We tend to glorify love and sing about it in our own sappy ways. I wonder how we might preach this kind of love not so much as obligation but as promise. “Oh the glory of true love Is a wild and precious thing It don’t grow on old magnolias Or only blossom in the spring No the glory of true love Is it will last your whole life through….." Certainly, God’s love as promise will last our whole life through…..

The Problem with Belonging

22 At that time the festival of the Dedication took place in Jerusalem. It was winter, 23 and Jesus was walking in the temple, in the portico of Solomon. 24 So the Jews gathered around him and said to him, "How long will you keep us in suspense? If you are the Messiah, tell us plainly." 25 Jesus answered, "I have told you, and you do not believe. The works that I do in my Father's name testify to me; 26 but you do not believe, because you do not belong to my sheep. 27 My sheep hear my voice. I know them, and they follow me. 28 I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one will snatch them out of my hand. 29 What my Father has given me is greater than all else, and no one can snatch it out of the Father's hand. 30 The Father and I are one."

Jesus response to the request of the Jews is troubling: "You do not believe, because you do not belong to my sheep." How does one get into the "belonging with Jesus and his sheep" section of society? The church and our catechism dish out the answers about baptism and such-- a doable task. But here Jesus makes belonging sound like it has more to do with God's initiative. So, is it God's initiative that some humans do not belong? Such a possibility could make one want to throw stones at God. The Old Adam/Eve has some pretty big pockets for rocks.

What gives me hope here is that Jesus does not conclude with "you do not believe because you do not belong to my sheep." He continues by proclaiming the good news to those standing around him for whom trusting Jesus' words and deeds as messiah-like is a struggle. "I give my sheep eternal life, and they will never perish. No one will snatch them out of my hand."

Jesus' move in this text makes room for the preacher to pull a Forde and directly declare the good news to the hearer. Faith would be created by hearing and the sheep would be hearing the shepherds voice. I am inclined to head that direction, if it weren't for that Lose guy who was trying to give us some other options, so as not to get stuck in the rut of ending every sermon with something like "God loves you."

Could we discuss what some of those other options might be? How do we leave the pulpit on Sunday feeling like we've preached creatively and courageously in such a way that the hearers in the pews picture themselves in the fold of Christ who holds them in his hand.

Our Resident Poet at Work

screwed up *

by H. R. Berg [pen name in case deniability becomes an issue]

everybody's screwed up
it's just a matter of degree

someone might seem normal
until you know the whole sad story

all are victims
all are victimizers

the wise are often foolish
and the powerful often destructive

the best are deeply flawed
and the worst defy description

everybody's screwed up
it's just a matter of degree

* Disclaimer: Author is not ruminatively associated with any mental health organization.

Love Hurts

Gone Fishin’ Tryin’ to Forget - Interrupted by Forgiveness

John 21:1-19
After these things Jesus showed himself again to the disciples by the Sea of Tiberias; and he showed himself in this way. 2 Gathered there together were Simon Peter, Thomas called the Twin, Nathanael of Cana in Galilee, the sons of Zebedee, and two others of his disciples. 3 Simon Peter said to them, “I am going fishing.” They said to him, “We will go with you.” They went out and got into the boat, but that night they caught nothing. 4 Just after daybreak, Jesus stood on the beach; but the disciples did not know that it was Jesus. 5 Jesus said to them, “Children, you have no fish, have you?” They answered him, “No.” 6 He said to them, “Cast the net to the right side of the boat, and you will find some.” So they cast it, and now they were not able to haul it in because there were so many fish. 7 That disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, “It is the Lord!” When Simon Peter heard that it was the Lord, he put on some clothes, for he was naked, and jumped into the sea. 8 But the other disciples came in the boat, dragging the net full of fish, for they were not far from the land, only about a hundred yards off. 9 When they had gone ashore, they saw a charcoal fire there, with fish on it, and bread. 10 Jesus said to them, “Bring some of the fish that you have just caught.” 11 So Simon Peter went aboard and hauled the net ashore, full of large fish, a hundred fifty-three of them; and though there were so many, the net was not torn. 12 Jesus said to them, “Come and have breakfast.” Now none of the disciples dared to ask him, “Who are you?” because they knew it was the Lord. 13 Jesus came and took the bread and gave it to them, and did the same with the fish. 14 This was now the third time that Jesus appeared to the disciples after he was raised from the dead. 15 When they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.” Jesus said to him, “Feed my lambs.” 16 A second time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.” Jesus said to him, “Tend my sheep.” 17 He said to him the third time, “Simon son of John, do you love me?” Peter felt hurt because he said to him the third time, “Do you love me?” And he said to him, “Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you.” Jesus said to him, “Feed my sheep. 18 Very truly, I tell you, when you were younger, you used to fasten your own belt and to go wherever you wished. But when you grow old, you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will fasten a belt around you and take you where you do not wish to go.” 19 (He said this to indicate the kind of death by which he would glorify God.) After this he said to him, “Follow me.”

What a great story.
Last Sunday, I touched on Dr. PayNoToll’s insight that Thomas shows us that faith can be difficult. Does this story show that faith can be painful? - or that forgiveness can be painful? both?
I sometimes suspect that talking about a story like this begins to undo what the story does. A certain “paralysis by analysis” that moves us out of the drama, and into our heads, moves us away form experiencing with Peter the transformative power of forgiveness and call, and gets us thinking ABOUT it all..
I think, in preaching this text, I’ll wonder a bit about why those guys went fishing. Were they trying to forget? Were they hungry? Why go fishing? Was there no baseball game on ESPN?
Let me add this fitting line which I had forgotten is from Stephen Wright:
“There's a fine line between fishing and just standing on the shore like an idiot.”
Whatever the reason, the risen Jesus interrupts their fruitless fishing, gives birth to an extraordinary catch, and commissions Peter to a life of love.

I had someone call me yesterday. She has a disorder that makes it impossible for her to eat wheat. Celiac or something. Even a little communion wafer renders her quite out of sorts.
Googled and found a recipe for wafers made with rice flour. In the midst of all that, were articles about how the Catholic Church has responded to people with such allergies by telling them they cannot receive the sacrament - that there HAS TO BE wheat in the communion wafer - and that men with such disorders will not be accepted into the priesthood. It’s easy to bust on the RC’s, but we all lose sight of love at times. Not to overstate it all, but this Peter story seems to suggest that rice flour might be acceptable to our Lord and Savior. (But only in extreme cases!!!!!!)

Does forgiveness give rise to action? Does the encounter with the risen Jesus go hand in hand with a sending to share and tell, to live and love?

Idle Tails and Linen Cloths

Luke 24: 1-12

But on the first day of the week, at early dawn, they came to the tomb, taking the spices that they had prepared. They found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they went in, they did not find the body. While they were perplexed about this, suddenly two men in dazzling clothes stood beside them. The women were terrified and bowed their faces to the ground, but the men said to them, "Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here, but has risen. Remember how he told you, while he was still in Galilee, that the Son of Man must be handed over to sinners, and be crucified, and on the third day rise again." Then they remembered his words, and returning from the tomb, they told all this to the eleven and to all the rest. Now it was Mary Magdalene, Joanna, Mary the mother of James, and the other women with them who told this to the apostles. But these words seemed to them an idle tale, and they did not believe them. But Peter got up and ran to the tomb; stooping and looking in, he saw the linen cloths by themselves; then he went home, amazed at what had happened.

Believing in the resurrection of Jesus is a mixed bag. It is important and, I would say, even necessary for Christians to have this belief. What I think I might be interested in is: how does that faith happen?

Lutherans make a big deal about promises. Jesus promises he will rise again, therefore he will. Is that enough for faith? For the women first at the tomb two things came together to give them faith: seeing the empty tomb and being reminded of Jesus' promises.

Humans don't always put much stock in promises. When the women returned to the other disciples and told them of their experience, no doubt including a reminder of the resurrection promise of Jesus, the other disciples thought they were talking crap-- doing a little April Fools Day.

Peter was intrigued enough to go to the tomb. He found it empty and the sight of the linen cloths somehow triggered in him amazement-- which I take to be belief.

What causes faith in a Jesus risen from the dead?

Sir Underminer shares a story for its humor:

A small town had a community-wide Easter pageant one year. Different towns-people were given the various parts. The character of Jesus went to a most unlikely person - a big, burly, barroom brawler, an oilfield worker, the most unlikely person to play Jesus our Lord. After several weeks of rehearsals, the day of the Easter Pageant finally arrived.

When they came to the part of the play where Jesus was being led away to be crucified, one little man, filling in as a part of the crowd, was yelling the shouts of "Crucify him! Crucify him!" as Jesus was led away toward Calvary. In the midst of shouting insults at this man, he accidentally sprayed some spit in the face of the man playing Jesus. The oilfield worker stopped in his tracks, reached up and wiped his face dry. And then he looked at the little man and said: "I'll be back to take care of you after the resurrection."

Something happens in the resurrection that makes it possible for the burly Jesus to say this. The resurrection is Jesus not held down by human limits. The resurrection is: God stronger than death. Jesus taking care of us without death holding him down.

The resurrected Jesus is the object and source of our believing. Resurrected from the dead, he's no longer in the tomb, he is in us.

That's not going to preach, but will it get us somewhere in our rambling?

Echoes of Christmas Angels

28 After he had said this, he went on ahead, going up to Jerusalem. 29 When he had come near Bethphage and Bethany, at the place called the Mount of Olives, he sent two of the disciples, 30 saying, “Go into the village ahead of you, and as you enter it you will find tied there a colt that has never been ridden. Untie it and bring it here. 31 If anyone asks you, ‘Why are you untying it?’ just say this, ‘The Lord needs it.’” 32 So those who were sent departed and found it as he had told them. 33 As they were untying the colt, its owners asked them, “Why are you untying the colt?” 34 They said, “The Lord needs it.” 35 Then they brought it to Jesus; and after throwing their cloaks on the colt, they set Jesus on it. 36 As he rode along, people kept spreading their cloaks on the road. 37 As he was now approaching the path down from the Mount of Olives, the whole multitude of the disciples began to praise God joyfully with a loud voice for all the deeds of power that they had seen, 38 saying, “Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord! Peace in heaven, and glory in the highest heaven!” 39 Some of the Pharisees in the crowd said to him, “Teacher, order your disciples to stop.” 40 He answered, “I tell you, if these were silent, the stones would shout out.”

"Remember merciful Jesu, that I am the cause of your journey." Mozart's Requiem

Is it just my recent experience, or does Jesus encounter conflict and opposition every time something goes well?
One might well wonder at how Jesus experienced the triumphal entry.
Was he joyful, fully a part of the celebration?
Or, was it quite something else for him?
It is interesting that this reading is followed in vs. 41 & 42 “As he came near and saw the city, he wept over it, saying, “If you, even you, had only recognized on this day the things that make for peace! But now they are hidden from your eyes.”
Peace in heaven, and glory in the highest heaven!”
Peace and glory, conflict and tears.
It is an intriguing story, and one which is hard to ever comprehend. I suspect that each time we celebrate Palm Sunday, we have to wave the branches, rejoice a bit, and remind one another that the peace which Jesus brings, comes through the terrible conflict of the cross.

Smells Like Money - No Something Else

John 12:1-8
Six days before the Passover Jesus came to Bethany, the home of Lazarus, whom he had raised from the dead. 2 There they gave a dinner for him. Martha served, & Lazarus was one of those at the table with him. 3 Mary took a pound of costly perfume made of pure nard, anointed Jesus' feet, & wiped them with her hair. The house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume. 4 But Judas Iscariot, one of his disciples (the one who was about to betray him), said, 5 "Why was this perfume not sold for three hundred denarii & the money given to the poor?" 6 (He said this not because he cared about the poor, but because he was a thief; he kept the common purse & used to steal what was put into it.) 7 Jesus said, "Leave her alone. She bought it so that she might keep it for the day of my burial. 8 You always have the poor with you, but you do not always have me."

I don’t know
That has to be said in reaction to this text.
What’s going on here? I don’t know.
But I do know that I can get a strong whiff of something. . .
Is that hypocrisy there, Mr. Let’s Care for the Poor?
Is that a fair assessment, Mr. Accuse Judas Now That He Can’t Defend Himself?
Is that foreshadowing when Jesus is anointed “for the day of my burial”?
Is that a seed of hope when Lazarus “whom he had raised” is there at the table?
Can there be echoes of a future event?
If so
The washing of the Disciples feet? Is that echoed by Mary?
The resurrection, is that echoed by Lazarus?
The betrayal, is that echoed by Judas?

The Rev. Dr. Pay No Toll has influenced me more than is wise, this is true. Yet, among his rich insights is the insight on the story of the Syrophonecian Woman - that we tend to pay too much attention to her. For her, the story is about Jesus.
When commentators who go on and on about Mary, or about Judas, or about the poor, is that who it is about?
I suspect it is more about Jesus. . .
That being said, I still don’t know what’s going on here.
Anointing for burial.
Discipleship as service; “Christians are people who do feet...”
The Gospel made real and present through “opposites” - God working life and salvation through suffering and death.
What’s that smell?
Smells like death is at the door, but that perfume, hints at more than death, there is resurrection and life as well. . .

Pea Pods and Prostitutes

There are two pieces I have read in preparation for this post. The first is a 1994 Christian Century article by A. Katherine Grieb at religion-online.org/showarticle.asp?title=2969 . The other is a sermon by Robert Capon at csec.org/csec/sermon/Capon_4414.htm. Both challenge the typical reading of this text that leads to giving the story the title "The Prodigal Son." Both articles are excellent, and you would do well to stop reading this right now and read just them.

What I am interested in is the context of this story. It is part of a response to verses 1-3 which describe the context of Jesus storytelling-- namely, tax collectors and sinners were flocking to Jesus to listen to him. Jesus even dined with them. And this upset the Pharisees. They refused to celebrate the grace of it all.

So Jesus tells two parables. The first (which is not read this Sunday) is designed to justify his affection for sinners, and communicate God's happiness in finding one who once was lost-- "Rejoice with me, for I have found the sheep/coin that was lost." Heaven parties when a sinner repents. (Or a sinner joins the partying of heaven in the act of repentance.)

The second parable is this Sunday's reading. This parable goes beyond showing the happiness of the father to displaying the ugliness of the older son's indignation and beyond that to the relentless loving presence of the father with that older son. Clearly the older son is just as bad off or worse than his little ho of a brother. As Capon points out, the parable ends with the father and the older son. Not much is resolved,

But nonetheless, the point is that you can never get away from the love that will not let you go and the elder brother standing there in the courtyard in his own hell is never going to get away from the Jesus who seeks him and wills to raise him from the dead.

The Pharisees ugliness is thrown back in their face, but Jesus reminds them that he will not leave them in their hell.

Let it Alone

Luke 13: 1-9

"At that very time there were some present who told him about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mingled with their sacrifices. 2He asked them, "Do you think that because these Galileans suffered in this way they were worse sinners than all other Galileans? 3No, I tell you; but unless you repent, you will all perish as they did. 4Or those eighteen who were killed when the tower of Siloam fell on them — do you think that they were worse offenders than all the others living in Jerusalem? 5No, I tell you; but unless you repent, you will all perish just as they did." 6Then he told this parable: "A man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard; and he came looking for fruit on it and found none. 7So he said to the gardener, 'See here! For three years I have come looking for fruit on this fig tree, and still I find none. Cut it down! Why should it be wasting the soil?' 8He replied, 'Sir, let it alone for one more year, until I dig around it and put manure on it. 9If it bears fruit next year, well and good; but if not, you can cut it down.'"

Here in Luke – the unfruitful fig tree is given more time and nurture in order that it will once again produce fruit. Can we say that it is a parable of grace or judgment ? Both ? The vineyard owner’s patience had worn out (3 years of waiting for fruit). He wanted to be rid of this fruitless tree…but the gardener appealed for mercy. “Sir, let it alone [Grk.= aphesis] for one more year, until I dig around it and put manure on it..” I wonder why it was that Jesus has the gardener being the messenger of grace and not the owner of the vineyard ? Are both the vineyard owner and the gardener divine figures in the story ? [Grk.= aphesis] translates Let it alone….let it be…suffer, pardon, forgive. This is the same word which Jesus speaks from the cross – “Father, forgive (aphesis) them, for they know not what they do.” (Lk. 23: 34) In his book, The Parables of Grace, Robert Capon writes: “ The world lives, as the fig tree lives, under the rubric of forgiveness. The world, of course, thinks otherwise. In it’s blind wisdom, it thinks it lives by merit and reward.” (pg. 97)

Last week, Pay No Toll raised the question, How determined or stubborn is God ? Perhaps the question here is How far will God's patience extend ? How much time will God allow for us to repent...to turn back....before judgment comes - chop it down. Patience...let it be....let it alone. We live, as Capon says, like the fig tree lives...under the rubric of forgiveness. Isn't patience like forgiveness ? Hey, guys...thanks for putting up with me !